Sophia comes home

Her coming home outfit!

Sophia came home on Friday evening after a long and emotional day. Her pediatrician and the nurses in the hospital were unsure if she would come home. We were just waiting around to see what they would say. They still didn't know what was causing her high respiration and wanted to know how I felt about taking her home. Around 3:00 PM, they said she could come home with us. I was so happy and nervous at the same time.

It was stressful to me because there were no answers. They were unsure of what the problems were which makes my mind think crazy, scary things. The anxiety just gets to me and I can't calm down. I didn't know what problems I was looking for and then what to do if I noticed anything unusual. The first night she was home, I had a panic attack because she seemed to be breathing rapidly. I could not fall asleep or take my eyes off her. Then, she woke up with a high-pitched scream and was gagging. Luckily I remembered to use the bulb syringe to suck mucous out of her throat so she could breathe. I was really stressed and anxious so we called the nursery at the hospital. A really sweet and helpful nurse told me what to do and look for. After that I asked Eric to give Sophia and I blessings. It made such a difference and we were all able to sleep after that. What would I do without Eric?! He calmed me down and comforted me.

In the end, all is well. Her pediatrician wanted to see her today to check up on her. It was a great visit and everything looks good. She is 7 lbs. 10 oz, just one ounce shy of her birth weight. Her lungs and heart sound good. The pediatrician said she still doesn't have an answer for what caused Sophia to have problems but I am just grateful that she is healthy!

The boys were so happy to have her home. They have been so sweet, always wanting to hold her. Ty says, "mom, can I 'holdge' her?" They have both been so helpful and sweet. So far they have been getting me diapers, wipes, bottles and wanting to feed her. I never thought they would adore her this much. I hope it stays that way!
It has been more fun than I thought to dress her everyday. And, the bows, oh the bows! That little shop at the mall is going to be seeing a lot more of me.

Grandma Dianne and Sophia.

I love this lady bug outfit from my sisters!

Talon wants one of these cozy blankets for himself. I don't think he cares that its pink with hearts on it because its just too cozy.
She was looking at me this morning and gave me the biggest smile. I know they say it's gas when they smile, but I'm taking it as a personal smile from daughter to mother. When she gave me that grin I noticed that she might have Eric's dimple! You only see it when he laughs and I love it. I can't get enough of this little girl! I don't think the euphoria of having her has worn off yet.