Saturday, January 24, 2009

Baby ultrasound and a new Doctor!

An ultrasound on your first cool is that? I wish I knew the sex of the baby, but it's so great to know all is looking good. As we were looking at the ultrasound the first thing he said was, "Your baby looks awesome".

I love my new doc by the way, Dr. Russell Smith. He is so great. He is so easy to talk to and I never felt rushed or nervous. I used to feel very particular about going to female OBs, but I have since realized it depends on the person, not whether or not they are a woman or a man. My first doc was a woman and she was awful. She was insensitive and cold. She didn't seem to understand compassion or sensitivity in any form. She didn't have children of her own and she seemed to think that all pregnant women were whiners. When I went for my 6 week check-up after having Talon I told her that I thought I might have post-partum depression. She said, "hmm...Are you sure?" It was extremely difficult to bring up in the first place and then she doubted me! It was impossible to hold back the tears at that point. I was having such a hard time and was hoping that there might be an answer and she squashed my hope. I don't know why I put so much trust in her. I should have gone to another doctor because as it turns out, I had major postpartum depression.

As I was sitting there crying, she went to get some pamphlets about post-partum and then started to offer some suggestions, but I was so frustrated that I just left. Can you tell that I didn't like her? Anyone who questions someone's suffering is not on my good side. It's interesting because any time her name comes up, it seems to be the same story.

My second doc was a woman that I really liked. She was very kind and gentle. I could talk to her, but I still felt intimidated. Now I feel like I can say whatever I need to. It's like he actually enjoys talking to his patients. Either he puts on a good show or he is really genuine. I hope it continues to be a positive experience!